Monday, January 4, 2010
Just Getting Started
Welcome to my blog! I just watched the movie Julie & Julia and decided that a blog might be what the doctor could order for me. Since this does not need a script, thought I would try it out for myself. I am a 30-year-old woman who was molested by her step-father at the age of 8. My mom is still with the man and does not know why it breaks my heart every day. He has admitted that he molested me and yet she acts as dumb as a blind mouse sitting on a mouse trap. I would like to use this blog as a way for me to vent about what has happened and how it affects my everyday life with my husband and two kids. I hope that this will bring peace to me and comfort to others that are going through the same thing. I am going to post just about every gross detail, so if you have a weak stomach (or heart) this won't be the blog for you. However, if you stick around long enough, you will see how I power through and overcome the daily obstacles that I face. Until tomorrow, God bless.
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Nicky I had no clue that this has happened to you. Baby I wish I could say the right words of comfort but I too had been sexually abused by my step dad and father as a child and my mother never knew because I never told her.On her death bed I was going to but I couldn`t because my heart wouldn`t let me.I do not understand why my sister stayed with him because I never stayed with men that abused my children. I was so confused about my sexuality for many a year because of sexual abuse.No one understood why I turned to women but I was trying to find comfort where there was pain. I don't know babe if you can understand where I am coming from but my pain led me to the path I had chosen. Life promises us no bed of roses but if you think about it my sister kept my nieces from me because of what happened to my children but she allowed things to happen to you. That I don't understand.He is the one that lied to my sister when me and him was just friends never anything happened between us but yet he caused two sisters that were close to grow apart and yet she(my sister) will not see my side of the story.He has always ran around on her but yet she stayed with him. I love my sister and always will but we will never be close as we were because of him. And that is sad.Id like to cut his you know what off because of what he did to you. But God will take care of it.am here for you and my Life today has changed and I am finally coming out with my Life so it will help others have a better understanding of me and what I went through and how I overcame it after 35 years of pain.My momma didn't know because she wouldn't of excepted it.I tried to tell her something about it and she sent me to live with my Dad whom did more sexual abuse to me not to mention my stepmother.I was 4 years old when abuse started with me.It effected me so bad that I had nightmares and still do. And Nicky the honest to Gods truth my step dad tried to sleep with me the night my momma died how do you think I felt and still do. My momma had just passed away.I had just came back from Florida and my momma passed away that morning when I was in Memphis heading home and they would not hold her body there til I got there.Needless to say my step dad apologized but do you think for one minute anyone believes me if I would tell them? That`s why I wrote Don`t ask don`t tell. I am writing a book about my life and hope I can touch someones life and for mothers to open their eyes and bond with their children because children need someone to run to if someone is touching them out of their respected rightful way of humanity and moral understanding ways. There are a lot of sick perverts who are never brought out into the open because people don`t want to accept that their man would do such a thing. I hurt all through my life because of men. But I know there is a better life for me now. Your father was a good man for my sister they were just to young when they got married. Its confusing to me why she married a man that was her brother in law by marriage. He was your uncle and step dad and i bet that is still confusing to you. I love you and I understand you and where your cries are coming from. I felt your pain reading your blog.God Bless you and may he comfort you. Love your Aunt Shirley October 1, 2010 8:56 pm
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